”If we know ourself, then we will not flee elsewhere” – Chai Jing
Long distance running is challenging even just to think about.
And maybe this is the issue of not living (doing) it, because I think too much (about its difficulty).
First of first I tend to change for the change itself instead of the necessity felt.
Then I start with an ultimate aim, followed by an ultimate plan. The pleasure of building such a mental architecture is grand until it hits the reality: limited time, energy, motivation, interest, rational, resolution and determination for repeating one singe thing. This gap between planning and practice can be quite frustrating and powerless, distracting , blaming , shaming myself, from living the moment. It is essentially an tension between my ideal self and real self. Maybe I should abandon the idea of achieving my ideal self. Instead, I can focus on living the moment lightly, where I ride the flow, ride the adaptive cycle, react as the reality and context hits (in Kungfu, if I want to punch fast, I need to be relaxed enough).
One flow, another one, and more will push me to a place beyond my imagination ‘The gist is just to carry on’. Why do not I choose to live a life ‘more relaxing, more flexible, more vivid, more colorful life, more fruitful, more insightful, more mindful?’ Choose wisely
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