For this specific pieces I am modifying, I feel really tired after having laid out all the options for editors and reviewers. Yes, the brain juice can be run out for this specific situation, which is after probably fourth rejection. It becomes unclear to myself that what I was trying to say, and what I will try to say.
This is a writer’s block for me, I still remembered feeling deattached to the meaning of any words in the hotel. That was a painful experience of reaching out for something in the emptiness. And I do not have option of giving up this manuscript and move on, which is my true wish.